| A note of thanks |
[Jan. 7th, 2010|02:06 am] |
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Thanks for the support. Love ya'll.
Sick from either a stomach flu or stress. Taking tomorrow off.
Time to sleep. |
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| I have three big questions for fellow christians. |
[Jan. 6th, 2010|08:22 pm] |
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1.) Why did God bring sin onto earth in the first place? (A reason other than Eve eating an apple from the tree of knowledge.)
2.) If God loves everyone no matter what, then why are some condemned to eternal hell for not believing?
3.) Are things such as being gay or committing suicide sins?
(Note: this is all just out of curiosity.) |
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| Matt and I have ended our relationship |
[Jan. 6th, 2010|04:27 pm] |
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There is no relief in this. Only intolerable levels of pain on both sides.
He'll probably head home tonight and drink his face off. I could cry for a week and sleep for six more and probably still not feel any relief. My stomach is in agony, and I have the worst stress headache I've ever felt in my life. Zack will be home soon. Time to play happy.
Only pain.
More details when I'm not squinting through tears.
ETA: I'm sure this is just raw emotions talking, but any "you go girl" or otherwise congratulatory comments will result in swift and permanent deletion from my friends list. I know many of you have been campaigning for me to dump Matt for, quite literally, years, but this is not a "YAY" moment. It's pure devastation and heartbreak an agony. I honestly feel like right now it would be nice to be dead for a while. |
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| I'm sorry if this isn't allowed here: |
[Jan. 6th, 2010|11:50 am] |
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I'm writing an article for our zine about alternative female health as well as alternative menstrual products.
If you were reading this zine (especially if you didn't know much about the subject), what topics would you want to read about?
Thanks :) |
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| Not a zombie post |
[Jan. 6th, 2010|11:13 am] |
I want to chew on your brain... dig my fingers into it... feel it, touch it... curl up in it.
Those are compliments from me, big ones, but they're kinda weird. I don't say them out loud too often because I don't want to freak my intended recipient out. Those of you who I can say that to already know I think like that because I've already been rooting around in your brains, poking at stuff like a mad scientist with an alien space craft.
In short: Brrraaaaiiiinnnssss.
One thing I've learned with experience is that one way to become fascinating to someone is to be fascinated in them. But this has limits. As much as people like to be paid attention to they usually don't like being observed and examined. Something about being a bug pinned to a board makes them uncomfortable.
For every person who is thrilled with how I observe, analyse, and transform that data into appropriate action there are ten or more who just find it creepy and several who think it sucks the value right out of my actions. Truth is that I watch everything and everyone, constantly filtering, evaluating, analysing, evaluating, judging and storing/organizing/discarding. It may not always work but it isn't something I can turn off.
So I've learned to do a bit of magic.
Abracadabra! Voila! Miracles without process documentation. Let them think what they want. You do something just because you like someone, NOT because you like someone and therefore have taken the time to collect and analyse the best course of personalized action suited to that individual. Dossiers are something that spy agencies create, not friends, family, or lovers.
It's amazing the amount of magic I can do by keeping my mouth shut. Luckily for me though, those close to me don't need magic to make the world go round and seem pretty happy to let me continue on as if I might someday figure it all out. That's part of why I like them. |
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| THROUGH THE BIBLE - Exodus |
[Jan. 5th, 2010|06:58 pm] |
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THE PASSOVER
Read Exodus 11:1–12:42
"I am the LORD … when I see the blood, I will pass over you.” Exodus 12:12b–13 NIV
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After nine plagues and refusals by Pharaoh to let the people go, in the tenth and final judgment, God sent His angel to strike the firstborn male of every family in Egypt. Only those who put the blood of a lamb on the two doorposts and the lintel would be spared. The Lord promised them, "… when I see the blood, I will pass over you. No destructive plague will touch you when I strike Egypt." (12:13b) This event came to be known as the Passover. God commanded, "This is a day you are to commemorate; for the generations to come you shall celebrate it as a festival to the LORD—a lasting ordinance."(12:14)
Over fourteen hundred years later, Jesus sat down to the Passover meal with His disciples and said, "This cup is the new covenant in My blood, which is shed for you." That very night in the Garden of Gethsemane, being in agony, He prayed more earnestly. Then His sweat became like great drops of blood falling down to the ground. (Luke 22: 20b,44 NKJV)
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Thank You Lord, for giving Your Son for us, that we might enjoy eternal life in Your presence. Help us to tell the story of the cross to our children, just as the Israelites taught their children through this annual feast. May our lives radiate the message of Jesus the Passover Lamb.
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"In days to come, when your son asks you, 'What does this mean?' say to him, 'With a mighty hand the LORD brought us out … out of the land of slavery.' " Exodus 13:14 NIV
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| Hrm |
[Jan. 5th, 2010|05:01 pm] |
Reasons why My Stats/My Guests does not make me Happy:
1) That little problem with the stats changing when the page is refreshed? Yeah. Still not fixed. My complaint wasn't even acknowledged. And now 2009 has a tendency of disappearing all toghether. Therefore, I can't trust the numbers.
2) Huh? What does that mean? The stats being displayed are often confusing as to what they are actually measuring. I'm still uncertain what stats apply to people who have actually visited my page. Therefore, I can't understand the numbers.
3) What time is it? It is only explained on the main stats page what time zone the date/times are in. Other pages with date/times do not indicate the time zone. There is no way at all to change the time zone to something useful to me. The helpful time zone conversion page leads to an external page. Therefore, I can't easily determine what time/date it is.
4) Unknown user, unknown user, unknown user? At the time of typing my My Guests page has only 3 (of 20) identified users on it. While giving the option to opt out was the right decision from an ethical standpoint it rendered the function practically useless. Therefore, I can't determine who has been visiting (other than a few people). |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 5th, 2010|02:09 pm] |
I want to do a few short writing exercises (ie finger-brain warm-ups). Could somebody(s) give me a prompt? (ie bunch of words, topic, safe-for work pic, sentence, etc)
Listening to: "Sweeping Romance" by Prozzak |
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| Augustinian Volunteers |
[Jan. 5th, 2010|11:47 am] |
Recently someone posted about Catholic volunteer service organizations. So here I am plugging the Augustinian Volunteer program. Their web site can be found here. Here is a video promoting the Volunteer program. Obviously I'm biased, but I've had a lot of experience with our volunteers over the years, and I've yet to encounter one whose life has not been positively transformed as a result of the year of service. Many of the volunteers ended up volunteering for a second year, and quite a few continue to work for the program to this day. Here's the video:
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| question |
[Jan. 5th, 2010|12:20 pm] |
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How would you go about removing the log from your eye? |
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| Dreaming of a what? |
[Jan. 5th, 2010|08:23 am] |
In general, I don't attribute specific interpretive meaning to my dreams. I consider them to be the "empty trash" function of my brain and rarely remember them. Nightmares are different. Those rarely come with imagery and plug right into the emotional bits that tell me to run screaming away from the night. They are almost exclusively indicators of the leading edge of depression or extreme stress. They are indicators of physical issues (much like sex dreams).
Bad dreams... I'm not sure what to make of bad dreams. Those are the ones I wake up from and can still remember but they leave an icky, uncomfortable feeling in my mind. Sometimes they make sense, like having the bug dream after looking at that horrible picture or incorporating various explanations for real physical discomfort, but most of the time they don't make any sense at all. They are the baby brother of Nightmares. Creatures that follow their older sibling around, imitating him but not quite getting it right such that instead of Hell Hounds you get a determined little dog peeing on your leg.
I've been having bad dreams lately. I'm not sure why but I'm blaming slightly elevated agitation, slight physical discomfort, and going back to work. It's the best excuse for why I dreamed of being tethered by my ankle to a hospital bed in a maze-like Nortel compound with a pleasant orderly who's blackberry I stole to escape after having previously smuggled people in and out of a ritzy government hotel by using rugs and stolen ID or something, I'm a bit unclear on what I was actually doing. There was more but it's drifted off.
[Apparently I'm a super spy in my dreams... I'm sure it means nothing. Forget it. Seriously, forget it. Or my dream people will have to go visit your dream people and the result is sure to be nothing but explosions.]
I'd plunder my dreams for story ideas but frankly they don't have sufficient quality (see what happened with Twilight) for decent stories. Daydreams are much much better for that. (Those end up with magical human cockroaches and polymorph dragons. Clearly superior.) So, that leaves me heading off to work feeling "ick" and wishing for a heat ray (because it's winter out there... you'd think I'd have more bad dreams about winter but no, obviously my subconscious has given up on that). |
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[Jan. 4th, 2010|05:28 pm] |
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Please pray for my roommate Suzanne. We found out some really bad news today that may keep her from going to school, and if her appeal isn't approved, she'll be homeless. Please, please pray that God will help us find a way through this. |
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[Jan. 4th, 2010|05:27 pm] |
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Please pray for my roommate, Suzanne. We found out some really bad news today that may keep her from finishing college if her appeal isn't approved. Please, please pray that God will help us find a way. |
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| Announcements |
[Jan. 4th, 2010|02:49 pm] |
The Traveling Art Book has returned to me (again). I'll post the new pages as soon as Draco can take the photos for me. The next people on the list are ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) miss_electra, wetdryvac, and beta_zoid. (If you want on the list, let me know.)
I have nothing planned for V-Day this year. That means that if you get some anonymous gift or card or strangeness this year... it wasn't from me nor was it me doing it on someone else's behalf. You are probably being romanced by garden gnomes. Good luck.
However, if you end up getting an invitation to join the Mad Scientist's Club or a barely concealed warning to avoid Atlantis on a particular date... yeah, those are probably me. |
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| Good Afternoon |
[Jan. 4th, 2010|12:38 pm] |
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I just found this community so I wanted to hi.
I thought I'd post two fun facts about the Bible today.
1) Solomon had 700 wives and 300 concubines! Can you imagine!
2) In Genesis 16:12 An angel called Ishmael a "wild monkey of a man." I thought that was funny.
Anyway have a great day everyone! |
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| criminal justice |
[Jan. 4th, 2010|06:58 am] |
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What do you think of the system of criminal justice that the Israelites practiced? Do you think that the law that prescribed their methods and punishments was a *perfect* law? I mean, allegedly it was instituted by God, and allegedly God is perfect - so how could He have installed an imperfect law? Yet most people I know would say that in our day we have better laws, methods of justice and more effective punishments than the Israelites had. What do you think is really good in the Israelite laws, and what is really bad? Is there something about their system of criminal justice we could still use today? |
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| LETTERS TO THE CHURCHES - Hebrews |
[Jan. 3rd, 2010|06:34 pm] |
[42]Read Hebrews 11-12 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen...By faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible. Hebrews 11:1, 3 NKJV* * *
This is the inspiration section of Hebrews. Some call it the “Hall of Faith.” These Old Testament believers didn’t have the clear picture of redemption that we have in the completed Scriptures. They saw it by faith from afar off, believing in God’s promise of a Messiah. They obeyed what God told them to do, even when they didn’t fully understand. For them, and for us, the requirement for pleasing God was believing Him. For ...without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. (11:6)
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Lord, reading about these heroes of the faith, we are put to shame. Help us to "lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God." Hebrews 12:1b-2 NKJV
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These all died in faith, not having received the promises, but having seen them afar off were assured of them, embraced them and confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth....But now they desire a better, that is, a heavenly country. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for He has prepared a city for them. Hebrews 11:13, 16 NKJV
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| The winner of "Best of" 2009 is... |
[Jan. 3rd, 2010|01:15 pm] |
Thanks to everyone who submitted and voted over this month! This is DITL's fourth "Best of" event, and we've continued to have diverse and memorable entries every year.
Once again this year was very close: the winner was chosen by only a few votes!
The best of 2009 is....
facethemoon!
facethemoon's DITL documented her family traveling across Canada, on their way back to the west coast to find a place to settle. facethemoon made several DITLs over the course of the year documenting her journey through the country, building a following eager to see her family's return to her oceanside home.
Congratulations facethemoon for being 2009's most memorable!
Tomorrow, January 4th, is the first DITL of 2010! There is no theme this week. Please check the info page soon for updated dates. |
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| Rambles about virtually nothing |
[Jan. 3rd, 2010|03:57 pm] |
1. The Indiana Colts. I disagree with the coach's decision to pull the starters last week against the Jets. If the score was higher and there was no undefeated record on the line, I think coaches should go to their back-ups. But that game had so much at stake for football, for the NFL, for the fans, and probably for the players too. With how close the score was, I don't think many would have objected to risking it. Not as many people are going to remember who won the Super Bowl in 2010 as they would have remembered a god-knows-how-many game win streak (that could be carried over to next year) with perhaps a super bowl title. Moreover, the Colts might not even make the superbowl. Wouldn't that suck?
2. The Giants are totally sucking today. I was routing for Minnesota even before the score was 44-0 because I am in love with Brett Farve, but I did not want a slaughter. I wanted a well played game. Wonder if Farve will retire again for a fourth time this year?
3. I regret getting my mac and not going with a PC. I spent several weeks researching a computer before getting one and then came home with what I least expected after this search: a 13" macbook pro. I like the computer and the extra features seem totally cool. I like how its easy to use, has a long battery life, is light weight, does not get viruses too easily, etc. However, it also does not seem to be able to use a few programs I need for work: Citrix, AHLTA, and CHCS. I also could have gotten a PC for a lot cheaper had I settled for something that did not have all the features I wanted (and even something that did). If I could get these programs I probably would not have any regrets. A lot of the reason why I went with the mac was because a friend of mine has one and loves it...a co-worker, so I made the inappropriate assumption that these programs were compatible and that we both wanted the same thing from a computer. My bad. I think it would be cheaper at this point to get a netbook in addition to this computer for work purposes...as opposed to installing windows on my mac.
4. Im looking over the DSM-IV to prepare ahead or my interview skills exam...which will be whenever the instructors feel like rescheduling it and then canceling it and then rescheduling it again...hopefully with a little more than five minutes notice and not on a post-call day.
5. Need to get my work stuff ready tomorrow...might post more about why I will not be wearing a navy uniform tomorrow at some point...maybe...but for now I need to freak out about it a little more. |
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