...I come to you with strange fire.

I have to decide in the next couple days if I want to go to Costa Rica in January (and miss pretty much the first week of classes- which, hey, are generally wildly boring anyway, and this experience may not be repeatable), plus finish my term paper draft. Then Thanksgiving break will be here, and I will rejoice. Hehe.

Sigh. Oh well. I guess it honestly doesn't matter whether I decide to go or to not go, because it was such a random sort of event that came up into my scope of life and plans. It would be great fun, but it would also mean some logistical work (passport, talking to each professor, and possibly waiving health insurance). No shots are required for this trip, which I think is amazing, because I hate fighting that one (on the other hand, my cousin just contracted Typhoid unexpectedly on a missions trip, so I wonder if that ought to serve as a warning to me...). There may well be other trips like this; there will never be another first week of those exact classes that I'll be in and am looking forward to. Spanish, which I've wanted to continue taking for years, will be starting, but then again, going to Costa Rica might be a far better way to pick up some more language skills. Duh. LOL.

I had another pro or con or piece of info, but now I can't remember it. Maybe it was just the fun part: It sounds incredibally amazing to go to a warm, balmy climate in the middle of January, and get away from frankly boring school. I'm super-excited when I think of it that way.

Anyone here have any thoughts or care to wiegh in? Otherwise, my practical side tells me "Don't do it" (plus I might miss some critical stuff in cell bio, which is already going to be a tough course for me- probably, with a lot of chem content), but my anventurous, fun-loving side whispers, "Do it, Do it, DO IT for your own sake DO IT!" It would be so, so easy.... Just hop on that plane with the others in the group, and there I'd be. Imagine- Costa Rica. Heh. It sounds incredible.

Maybe I'll go. Then again, last time I tried to take advantage of something "fun," it was getting involved with the theater dhow and then suddenly feeling ovewhelmed and swamped out of my mind: and I ended up pulling out. In a foreign country, there is no pulling back out of the trip. Hmm. Right.

See y'all,
Rachel

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Having a good weekend. :)

[Nov. 11th, 2006|06:12 pm]

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Ah, I am having a wonderful weekend! It feels like CHRISTMAS. Everyone's in a good mood, and I'm having nice discussions about politics with my family/housemates.

I can like, lie around in BED. This is incredible. There's nothing to do!

I have a chem test on Monday afternoon, but after everything in the last two weeks, that doesn't seem like anything. I mean, sure, I suppose I should study tomorrow and maybe a little bit tonight, but that's IT.

Ahhhhhhh. *exhales*

I'm doing well, in other words. ;)

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November: Burnt, brilliant orange

[Nov. 3rd, 2006|06:31 pm]

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I can't believe it's November, you know? That happens to me with college. I walked home from [college] in the bright, bright yellow-blue sunny day today, and I watched the leaves, and passed the cold houses, and thought about it being November now.

I've been so busy, and while it IS kind of sad, it's also really nice to let fall and winter come on before I even notice. It takes away from my negative experience of winter and winter blues VERY WELL. For that I am grateful. Today I walked past a house that had some highly creative Halloween decorations up for the last week or so (including some neat Pirate motifs), and I realized sadly that they'd been taken down in the last couple days and I hadn't noticed! I guess with catching rides to school with my dad during the super cold snap, or driving the big monster van to the lab in the dark early morning I missed my usual routine of walking by every house. Ah. Well.

Something wonderful happened: within this day I learn that TWO of the FOUR nasty exams I had coming up all together next week have been postponed: so one of them will be at the end of the week instead of the middle amongst the other ones, and the last one won't be until the following MONDAY! That gives me an ENTIRE weekend to study chemistry! YES! :) And two more days to study bio. And leaves this weekend to write and research two assignments, and study archaeology, without 1 or two or three other things in there, too.

I feel really happy. :) Dispite the work that remains, of course, which could panic me, but let's just let it not, eh? ;)

I'm listening to Madonna and feeling the universal love of a benevolent God wash over me. Life is really not so bad half the time. :) Even all the time, perhaps. And it's certainly not bad when you have a warm bed to curl up on with plently of heat to cut the chill, and lots of blankets, and some good Madonna music pounding in your ears, and a laptop. It's not bad, it's not bad. It feels good. Curse those stupid papers, but hey. I'll get through them like every other filppin' college assignment out there. (Sigh.)

(I wish I could just lie here and sleep and muse and think- but you what I"d be doing if that was ALL I HAD TO DO WITH MY TIME? I'd be dreaming of all these educational goals I have, but not getting anywhere on them, and I guarantee you I'd be somewhat or fully depressed, sleeping during all the wrong hours of the days, and probably wildly depressed in these fall and winter months. Uh, yeah. Rant away. So there....yeah.)

I'm high on the idea of becomming a doctor one day, too, not sure why today, and even though it will have to be years to come from now anyway, but you know, whatever.

I am still undecided about the idea of getting out of college soon enough with a low-credit-hour theater major, absconing to a pre-med biology major (because I DO SO love all that junk), or doing something insane and giving up years of my life to something like a double major of these too, or the worst of all, a minonr in one or the other, where I wouldn't get it on my diploma, but I'd likely spend nearly almost all of the same amount of time over things. I really don't know what to think. I'll sleep on it, I guess, as they say. And life will go happily on. ;)

Don't know why I'm feeling so great today, but maybe it has something to do with naps, and the original reason for this post (the exams). I'm one of those people who doesn't know why she's happy when something good happens.

See y'all...
Rachel

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